Letting Go Pt.1

It has been over a week since I last seen him, touch him, kiss him. He is gone overseas and I don’t want to miss him more than I do already. He has another, I do too. Why can’t I be her? Why can’t I be the one he wants to be with for more than 20 min? Age differences? Army? dysfunctional family? I want him more than just sex. I want him for myself.